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INNOVA JUNIOR COLLEGE
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Thursday, 28 July 2011

Been having weird nightmares everyday and it is freaking me out. Honestly, even before school start, I am already so stressed!!! Haha or maybe God is trying to convey some messages through my dreams. Lols I must be thinking too much! I am actually quite selfish. Once I found a goal, I forgot everything else. This is not making sense. I always thought that goal was a good thing and teachers are always teaching us to have a goal in mind and not to stray away from it. But why, why do I feel that I am missing out a lot of important things in my life? These nightmares that I am having are constantly reminding me of what I have been missing out in. It's making me feel so uncomfortable, weird and sad. As if someone has just stabbed me a few times. I think I am in need of a counsellor now so that I can pour out what I am thinking to him/her. I don't really know what I am thinking now, my mind is in a state of mess. Sometimes, dying seems like a better option to me but yet again dying even before I accomplish anything sound a little stupid. Going on a little journey with myself this Saturday to clear my mind a little. Or maybe I should ask someone to go with me? Hmm sound like a bad idea, whenever I scroll my phone list, so many names yet nobody seem free so I end up not having the courage to ask anyone out since I believed they are all quite busy. Anyway on a happier note, I cook for my Mum and aunt to eat today. Is just a simple meal of Japanese curry but still I felt happy about it. Strange of me. haha guess I should just end it here. Shall blog when I have the time but coming August I see myself getting minimum free time with all the school load which is definitely coming in a few weeks' times.

只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。 ;