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Wednesday 30 July 2008
today hmmm....actually dont wanna slp last night but then i jus fall asleep and so didnt do anything at all. then i went to sch at 7.10am. lols...and today history consultation with Miss Ong make me realise tat i know nth abt history. and after tat off to Metta Home for the Intellectually Disabled. felt very happy and oso sad for them. happy becoz they seem to enjoy their life there as they were like kids like tat. no worries for sch work, no worries tat they will lose their jobs and so on. Sad tat they are always doing the same thing again and again, they have no directions in life, they cannot think for themselves. suddenly felt so fortunate tat i can think even though i sometimes(ok mayb not sometimes but is always) think too much. and i know wad i m doing and i still know how and why i m feeling sad or happy.
anyway, jus now was kinda shock to c all of them. they were all abt 3o to 70 years old but then they call us jie jie, kor kor. one guy even call me mama...lols. one aunty went into the room and held onto my hands and start walking ard the room then another aunty hug me and pull my uniform. tis is my first time going to tis home and so didnt expect tis. oh ya...another aunty keep asking me if i got call her home and ask me how was her grandfather and uncle. i keep telling her i didnt call but then she dont believe me...and ya we play london bridge...of all the ting...london bridge again...go kindergarden oso play that game...lols
we sang songs and dance with them. there is a piano there and all my red cross friends ask me to play a song or two for them. well as most of u know, i learn piano myself and so i was no expert jus like all my other red cross friends. the only song tat i really can use both my hand to play was Jay's song, Jie Kou. so i play that song plus london bridge and twinkle twinkle little star...but then the adults were not interested in it...so sad...XD
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Monday 28 July 2008
i m thankful i have Friends with me by my side. to think tat i actually wanted to leave them today. felt quite foolish...like wad jk say. i do things without tinking of the consequences. ya...should i have leave Friends today, i dunno wad will i do these many months to come. i will be avoiding everything and erm ya not being fair to all of them. i was actually quite afraid of today. been tinking too much tis morning. lols...turn out to be fine today. XD
thankfully!!! lols thanks pam and yy for ur kind understanding. hahaha...actually felt quite normal jus like nth have happen. i should stop tinking too much!!! planning my timetable again so tat i can show miss yeo tmr. she say i put too many break time le. should study more. but wad the use of putting studies in my timetable when i m not going to do tat??? lols...ya....muz do history h/w and i m not going to sleep tonitez...
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Sunday 27 July 2008
today went to popular and bought a few assessments books. guess how much it cost for the 4 bks i bought? $58.95!!! so exp la....haiz... wad bks did i bought? a gp guide bk, a math guide bk and 2 chem guide bks.
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will everything really be the same again??? ya hope so...we are still friends
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Saturday 26 July 2008
same feeling as pam. i tink tat this pic is the best.
this one is still ok. hmm...cs post is a bit too 'bad boy'
i look so funny in tis pic!
the rest of the pic can be found in pam blog. i jus take the best 3 pic from her blog=)
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this morning i went to sch for first aid training. i overslept and woke up at 8.30am. by the time i reach sch, it was already 9.15am. i m damn lucky tat the practical haven started yet. today we learn how to commence CPR. i never knew tat doing CPR is so tiring. next week is our test and i hope i can pass and be a qualified first aider so tat next time i could help in case of emergency. after our first aid course, cang ning, mei ying, ling ling, lenette(i tink i spell wrongly) and me went to a nearby coffee shop to eat. after tat i took the mrt to anywhere but home. jus dont wanna go home. i fell asleep on the mrt and when i woke up, i jus went out of the mrt station and it happen to be toa payoh. walking aimlessly at toa payoh hub is very torturing. i was lost! completely lost. i dunno where to go. it jus seem like i have reach the end of the world. looking at how happy the kids were in front of me and all the people walking away, i suddenly felt very useless. i jus stand there and weep. i am the cause of all unhappiness.
after walking long enough, i went to my grandmother house. my uncle and aunt are there and they jus ask wad wrong with me. i jus smile at them and remain silence. well i was tinking of all the tings tat happen in ijc and i know tat i have not been working hard enough in ijc. suddenly rmb one sentence in the innova handbook. AIM FOR THE MOON, BECAUSE EVEN IF YOU FAIL YOU WILL FALL AMONG THE STARS.
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Friday 25 July 2008
parents meeting is finally over. damn sad la. although miss yeo didnt really say anything bad except for the fact that the chance of me getting retain is relatively high, i still cry. sad man!!! muz work real hard to clear my mid course exam. jia you everyone. we muz all get promote. nobody is to get retain or go poly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i tink i should stop blogging until november and start doing more ten year series. anyone free tis sat and sun???
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Wednesday 23 July 2008
lols. jus now went to yy house. actually go sk to find my cousin but i end up gg yy house. she was still bathing when i reach her house. lols. i manage to complete my chinese h/w. we try to do the chem ws but then...i dunno how to do a lot of qn. i was like hell my chem sux!!!
anyway, we were sharing the subway sandwich which i did not pay for it. haha. shall treat yy somedays. today was my first time eating subway sandwich and i tink it taste nice. the cookie taste nice too!!! but then since it is so exp, it muz taste nice!!! lols.
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Tuesday 22 July 2008
jus now didnt go for hist lesson becoz i went to ACJC to watch the 4 sch who got gold with honour for their SYF drama performance. ACJC performance is the best!!! then second is RJC. Third will be TJC and the last will be HCJC. i m really very sorry to say that our sch standard is up to standard. we are going to perform for ijc students to watch during the combine assembly on i tink is 21 aug(thurs). damn!!! i dont wan to!!! firstly, the play is not good unlike ACJC play. secondly, i got a very small role. lols...if i got the lead role, i dont mind performing for the sch to watch. anyway, the good ting abt it is we dont have to put on makeup(that wad the teacher say and i hope it is true coz i hate makeup!!!)
anyway, now chionging pw with my dear project work mates chong siang and yuying in the sch lib. shall stop blogging now until i go home. XP
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Monday 21 July 2008
friends!!! even if i go to other school, u all will still miss me rite??? silence mean yes!!! love you guys always! XP
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i noe i shouldnt be thinking of you anymore. but i really cannot help it. liking you doesnt mean you muz be by my side. so long that you are happy, i will be happy to. i try hard to keep you as my friend and i TREASURE you as my friend and so i will not allow anyone, whoever he or she is, to break this friendship between us. even if we are not lover, we can be friends forever.
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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today woke up at 3am to watch 命中注定我爱你 plus do my h/w. i realise tat my dark eye rings are getting more and more obvious. must get more sleep!!! these few days getting more moody. might be because of the lack of sleep. haha...stay cheerful!!! sagi never say die!!! jia you for myself and everyone!!! XP
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Sunday 20 July 2008
today actually was quite happy. the fireworks effect can last for a day. haha. anyway, i wonder if i m going back to watch the fireworks again for the next two sat. hope FRIENDS will all be there with me!!!
jus now really feel damn angry la. y r guys so childish. is jus like i m going back to my primary 1 when people are saying something like, today friend u and tmr i dont wanna friend u le. and i will tell them ur secret if u dont tell me tis. tis are CRAP la. PLS!!! jus grow up. even a kid like me who is younger than most of u know tat i cannot be too kidish liao la. fuck man!!!!!!!!!!
really feel sry about this but i m seriously angry!!!!!
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Saturday 19 July 2008
tis morning i woke up at 7.30am since cang ning say she will be meeting me at 8.15am to go sch. haha. when i switch on my hp tis morning, wow!!! 8 sms!!! but only one caught my attention which is wad cn send me. she say she will b late and ask me to go to sch myself. and so i slack a while b4 deciding to change and go to sch. finally reach sch at abt 9.20am when i m suppose to b there at 9am for first aid course.
well...at first i thought it is a boring course and was feeling quite suxy as the course is going to end at 6pm!!! which mean i might not have enough time to go to bugis to do my pw and oso to watch MY FIREWORK. but when the instructor say we can go off at 1pm...wow!!! i was damn happy la and keep telling cang ning tat i can go bugis to watch my firework. the instructor is damn hilarious la. keep making us laugh with his funny expression and comment.
today course make me realise tat a first aider muz be super brave and oso muz be super cold hearted. coz if u c a guy with his blood all over his face and body, u muz have the courage to help him stop his bleeding and apply the first aid skill that u have learn. and if u c ur friend or family member and a stranger both injured but then the stranger is more badly injured than ur friend or family member. u have to treat the stranger first and not ur friend or family member. and a first aider oso muz be able to remain calm in any circumstances.
haha...after the first aid course, i went to bugis to do pw. i thought i m late but then, i was the earliest. i reach there at 3pm. cs reach at 4.30pm and yy reach at 7pm. by then, most of our pw stuffs are completed. but then we jus stay in the lib a little longer since we do not have enough time to go to the Singapore river there to have a closer look at the fireworks.
today's fireworks is nice. although the fireworks is only there for a few minutes, it never fail to make me smile and forget all the unhappy things. yy comment tat if the person u like is watching the fireworks with u, the feeling will be even better. tis make me tink of the 理想情人mv. when rainie yang and he jun xiang were dancing and there is fireworks in the background. it is so romantic la. although today no lover watching the fireworks with me, there are still friends watching it with me and so the feel is still there. tis is a thousand time better than watching the fireworks alone.
when i was young, i used to go with my mum and aunt to the Singapore river to watch the fireworks. the fireworks start at 9pm but we were already there at 6pm. my mum and aunt will tok to each other while i m left alone behind them staring into space. although the fireworks are nice, i jus feel lonely and the feel just wasn't right. i guess mayb u muz enjoy something with somebody in order to really enjoy it. haha...sharing the joy is impt!!!
so after watching the fireworks, the 3 of us went to lao pa sa to eat. the food there was good. especially the stingray!!! so long never eat stingray le. really miss the taste. haha. anyway thanks cs and yy again for the wonderful today. muaack.
jus asking u ppl. did u guys realise tat i only use the 7 standard colours for all my recent post? XD
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now is 12.03am le...going to slp soon. jus now when i was working, i heard this songs and i tink is quite related to me and FRIENDS. as i dunno how to put songs on my blog, i will just put the lyrics here.
这一段时间 有着什么样的画面
喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面
发现 每一页全都是经典
所有的故事都值得纪念
现实的考验 我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待 彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁
手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念
我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点 一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间 转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现
现实的考验 我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待 彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁
手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念
我们之间 不会有改变
相同的起点 一瞬间
變成了樂園
我们之间 转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现
我们之间 不会有改变
相同的起点 一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间 转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现
我们之间一瞬间 变成了乐园
我们之间 转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现
<我们之间>棒棒堂
i hope all of us will get promoted to J2. we muz all face our problem together jus like wad the lyrics say. we all have the same goal and we are not going to give up on any of us. 我们说好谁也不放弃谁!!! i have decided not to give up anymore. 我想通了...你们呢???
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Friday 18 July 2008
i have been tinking too much. thanks for my friend who keep reminding me tat. i tink is becoz i m scared of losing my friends and tat y i m so sensitive to things around me. maybe i really need time to get use to it. this sentence,everyone's different which makes them special and only when you're special yu're normal, sound true but then is hard to believe. anyway thanks px. u really make me realise a lot of things which i have miss out. i will take it as a lesson to be learnt.
liking a person doesn't mean the another person needs to like you back. liking a person can have many ways. liking a person means you care for the person, and the most important ting is dont ask for return. hmmm...these are hard to follow but then for my sake, i will try to apply it. by caring abt u but asking nth for return. i tink those ppl who are able to do it sure have a heart of gold. enduring the pain urself. haiz...i should learn from u ppl. thinking of wad i have been tinking these few days, i tink i m been quite selfish. haha...i have decided to treat all of u(Friends, CN grp) the same way as i always do. people have flaw too. do forgive me for my flaw. XP
pam say tat i have been too overly friendly to ppl and tat y ppl get the wrong idea. well mayb i should change to i muz be overly friendly to my close friends and not everyone. lalala... it is very difficult for me to say no to anyone la. for tis, giv me some time.
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Thursday 17 July 2008
THIS POST IS ONLY FOR PEI XIA!!!
HAHA!!!!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY
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sianz...jus now in math lecture listening to crap tat i dont understand. haiz...they say math is impt and i cannot giv up on it.
today listening compre still ok. not very difficult but quite tricky for some of the questions. jus now during econ and chem lecture, i realise tat wy and yy were paying attention in the lecture when i m still dreaming abt you. really should start learning from them and STOP thinking of you. anyway, i am getting used to treating you as a friend. tat is a good sign since you will never like me. anyway, as wad my friend told me, this feeling is crush and not love. i finally understand it.
i tink i ps my friends long enough le except for wy, pam, yy and cs. i hardly talk to jm, cn, ll plus my other friends. oh ya. thanks rong for ur encouragement.
anyway, wy is right in saying tat it is difficult to maintain my friendship with so many ppl. i tend to treat some of my friends better than the other sometime. like when i am with friends, i have to forgo my time i spend with cang ning group, my wrss friends, my MI friends and so on.
she is right in saying tat i have more hi-bye friends then real true friends. but it is hard to really find friends that really understand urself. i cant really blame anyone becoz i tried very hard for years to be the kind of friend tat can understand my friend's prob and needs. there was once i tried to be one of my friend, best friend. i keep tagging along with her group and hope tat i can be a part of the group. i offer to keep the plates for them when they finish eating and oso helping them to buy drinks. for i tink abt a year b4 i finally stop lying to myself tat i m a part of their grp. i m only welcome becoz i provide my service for them. when i m with them, they jus chat among themselves and i m jus invisible.
although i have failed friendship with some of them, i do have close friends but then not very close until they are willing to do anything for me. well...mayb i ask a lot out of my friends. well haha...mayb i m jus thinking too much. anyway, man come with nth and leave with nth. i jus hope tat if i really go, at least my friends can rmb tat there is such a girl call yanning who once came into their life b4.
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tmr is my A level chinese listening compre and wad am i doing now??? yupp!!! blogging!!! hahaha. tonitez i not slping. muz do finish my GP plus hist h/w plus arrange my GP file. so many things to do!!!! haiz...was thinking of wad wy say jus now and think tat it is quite true. i have many hi-bye friends but i have little true friends. hmmm...mayb tat becoz of how i treat my friends. well of course i wan true friends tat will be there for me when i need them and oso i will be there for them when they need me. in ijc there are a few of them but i wonder if they did treat me as a true friend. haha. i tink pei xia is nice as she always provide solution for my problems. yuying always listen to my crap and make me feel better as there is someone to talk to. wanyi and pam are good buddies of mine. they seem to always be there for me. and not to 4get cang ning and jie mei for their encouragement and support tat they are ready to give me anytime. so these are my true friends and so to follow wad wanyi say, i have to spend more time on them. i m willing to make any sacrifices for them.(tat is provided if they really need help.)XD
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Wednesday 16 July 2008
i m very tired now. now is 2.30am le and i m stil chionging my h/w. lols... i scared i too tired until tmr i anyhow scold ppl. if anyone get scolded by me later, pls jus give me one tight slap becoz i might be slping and so slap me so tat i will wake up. thanks arh. XD
haiz... shall i count down to mid course to giv myself a bit of stress??? from now to mid course exam is abt 8 weeks left. so jia you everyone.
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Tuesday 15 July 2008
Today i felt so emo and i slash myself again. haiz...then after sch dont feel like going home. coz when i get home, cant study plus my mum always nag at me for not working hard enough. so i keep bugging my friends if i can go to their house to slack or wadever. jus dont wanna study nor go home. unfortunately, the 3 of them seem busy today. haiz...and so i dunno wad got into me tat i decide to follow yy and shir into bus 161 to sk. as wad yy say, i m jus wasting my time. but going to sch is already a waste of my time le so waste another hour or so seem nth to me. LoLs...anyway, sry yy, shir and rach for asking u guys so many time if i can go ur house. hope u dont mind as i m feeling a bit down.
today reasons for feeling sad and emo.
-thinking of you
-Wad ms ang say ytd(i tink she oso lose hope in me le. i keep asking yy not to giv up but now i myself is beginning to lose hope la)
-ms yeo wanna speak to my mum(my mum is already nagging at me everyday abt my studies and after toking with ms yeo next wed or fri, i m dead sure i even more dont wanna go home.)
-a talk with my bro ytd(he keep saying i have made the wrong choice in going to jc. tat time choose sch i insist on choosing jc and now cannot cope.)
All these make me feel very sad because i tink i am super suxy. Everything oso dunno and today at yy blk void deck(coz i dunno where i wanna to go after reaching sk and god help me decide by raining very heavily and so i have to stay there) I was thinking of everything when an uncle talk to me about my studies. Make me damn sad tat i cried out. WTF!!!! when did i become so weak!!! Cried in front of a stranger. shouldnt have done tat. I dont like to appear weak in front of others.
but somehow crying in front of stranger is better than crying in front of my friends. at least tat uncle dunno who i m. should i have cried in front of yy and shir, i will feel damn pai seh!!!!! anyway, tat uncle's words seem to help me a bit. after crying, i actually got the mood to study and started to study. Muz complete a lot of things b4 tmr. i tink i tonitez dont wanna slp le. anyway i met a SRJC guy under yy blk today. i was studying and he came and sit beside me and we started chatting plus doing work. he offer to teach me chem and math every tues from 6 to 9pm. and of course i agree since i tink i got no hope in studying it by myself.
I WANNA PUT MY HEART AND SOUL IN MY STUDIES (AT LEAST FOR THESE 3 MONTHS)!!! DONT WANNA RETAIN. I WANNA BE IN 0823B AND I WANT ALL MY CLASSMATES TO BE THERE WITH ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday 14 July 2008
haiz...finally cannot take it anymore and i bought a penknife and u should noe wad i have done. well back to the usual phrase of mine. physical pain is better than emotional pain. XD
anyway, i m alright. penknife has always been the best cure for me. and i dont cut it very deep until a lot of blood gush out. jus a few drop of blood coming out from my wound. haiz...ming tian hui gen hao. XD
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finally finish EoM. now is 5.30am in the morning. wow...i haven slp at all...i wonder how i m going to survive until 6pm later. jia you bah...
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finally i m going to finish my EoM. now is already 3am and my bro and i are still doing work. haiz...jus now i got slp 1 hr from 12 to 1am but i pity my bro. he didnt even catch a wink and is still working so hard. come to think of tat, poly and jc are almost the same. no point going to poly if i fail to get promoted. i have decided to stay in innova and not go MI as i already bought the innova uniform. dont wanna waste my money. XD
anyway i tink i m beyond hope. i seriously hope tat if i wish upon the brightest star, my wish will come true. everything will change and we can be happy together but then THIS IS REALITY!!! THE REAL WORLD TOLD ME 2 WORD. I SUX!!! well i have to agree with it. things will never change and we cannot choose wad kind of person we wanna be. just like we cannot choose wad our name is. well at least being friend is better than losing you. i noe wad i m suppose to do when i see you again. but i seriously hope i could do that.
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Sunday 13 July 2008
forgot to say tat ytd was NDP preview and the fireworks are very nice. really have fun ytd with cs and yy=)
thanks for making ytd a wonderful day although we spent abt 4 hours doing pw. XD
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i have been thinking TOO MUCH!!! muz stop thinking of you and start concentrating in my sch work.
my friends conplain tat i have been scolding too much************
ya...should really STOP!!! y did i change so much??? is it becoz of you??? or am i jus using you as an excuse???
anyway, met cang ning, yiwen, jing yi, benjamin, vanessa, jin kang and shermene in the national lib today. i was suppose to meet yuying to do pw only. didnt expect to c so many ppl. went to lib at 10.20am (thought i was late but turn up tat i was super early as someone is still slping). i was slacking there at first lev when vanessa say hi to me at about 11 plus. then yy told me she still at home and so i go to lev 7 first when jk and ben came. they came for pw and so i saw jing yi and shermene oso. but after a while they went to B1 to do as their source is there. and yy came and we actually wanted to go B1 to do our work coz we were sitting so far apart. but after tat we stay in the same lev. jus change place. and when we were reading our book, cang ning came and choose a seat right in front of us + facing us. i got a shock!!! and i ask her wth she is doing here in the lib though i should already know the ans. we are both doing EoM. haha, how come today so qiao, mit so many ppl. and yiwen came after a while. speaking too loudly in the lib coz she listening to music. oh ya 4got to say tat cang ning ask me a stupid qn jus now. the qn was 'are u yanning'. haha. i was like -_-
shall chiong EoM now!!!
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Friday 11 July 2008
i finally wanna update my blog. anyway, shall tell u my life in primary 4. i was in 4G. i actually wanted to go to 4F for some reason. i rmb tat i love tag along with my friends though i know i m not really welcome. tat show how thick face i can get. XD
my primary 5 life was more interesting. i got into class 5G. there was this girl who came from south korea. her name is hannui(now in AJC). the first day she came to sch, i wanted to make friend with her but i lose to the most popular gal in my class, wei ru. and so hannui was always with wei ru and gang. so i never got a chance to talk to her until she become friend with kelly. i kinda of admire her as she is smart and amiable plus many ppl wanna b her friends. how i wish i was her. she got 100 marks for math. tat is something no one in my class have ever gotten. my aim was to win her in my studies.(which is like impossible) but maybe becoz of tat, i managed to at least not do badly for my PSLE.
i was in 6 United. another name for 6G as the school want ppl from EM1, EM2 and EM3 to feel proud of their class. i rmb the sch keep telling us tat PSLE is very important to us ...bla bla bla... and we muz do very well for it. we change Primary School Leaving Exam to Pls Stop Learning English(and other lame sentences.) we used to think tat PSLE is very scary. but actually it is not tat scary. Pri sch teacher will tell u tat without PSLE cert u cannot go anywhere. But when u come to secondary sch, the sec sch teacher will say, PSLE is nth. if u only had tat cert, u cant go anwhere. and so u go and take ur O level exam. next the jc teacher will say O level is nth, A level is impt as u can go to university and can get better jobs...bla bla bla...
when i first step into Woodlands Ring Secondary School. i felt weird. i always heard of secondary sch as a bad place as there will be a lot of gangsters asking u to join their gang. and oso, secondary sch are for big brothers and sisters. but when i went into a secondary school, the feeling is different. i no longer think tat it is a 'bad' place but rather i ask myself y did i used to think tat way. and so i was allocated to class 1E3. my bro was in 1E5 and we both thought i will be in 1E4 as i only scored 10 marks more than him. but surprisingly i got into a better class. 1E3, the third class in WRSS. first day of sch, i was scolded by Miao Hui as i keep bugging her. i was quite amused by her. but i never expect tat we will b in the same class for my 4 years in WRSS. too many things happen in my secondary life tat i dunno how to start and so i shall not blog abt tat. for ur information i was in class 1E3, 2E3, 3E2, 4E2 during my 4 years in WRSS.
i tink i dont need to blog abt my 2 months in Millenia Institute and my life tat will be spend in Innova Junior College.becoz i already wrote them in my past 100 plus post. XP
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Sunday 6 July 2008
when i was playing with my cousins, i suddenly think of myself when i was a child. i did lots of stupid stuff to my friends and myself. i remember going to my friend house with my cousin James when we were in K2. we went to his house and cut his hair. my mum found us and we got a scolding from her. when i was in primary 1, i remember going to school with my mum on the first day of sch and i saw most of the kids crying and ask my mum wad happen. she didn't answer me but ask me to go to sit with the kids. i was in class 1D. when my mum walk away, i didn't cry as most of the kids do but continue to sit and stare at the other kids. tat day, i met my first friend in chongfu pri sch. she was a very tall girl and both of us couldn't find our sch bus and so we were brought together by the teacher. she was crying and i just stand beside her and stare at her. in the end, we found out tat we were actually taking the same sch bus home. on the bus, we didn't really talk much. we were shy, i guess. anyway, the bus auntie give all of us a nick name. my nick name was huang huang niao or yellow bird. until now, i still dunno why the bus auntie call me tat. do i look like a bird to her??? during primary 1, i have a chinese drama class every sunday. i love the class and i always ask my teacher when we will have a chance to go on stage. the only answer he gave was "soon. after we learn this, we are going to perform for the sch." but the 'soon' never came because, the teacher went back to china and we dont have drama class anymore. during primary 1, we were suppose to get an injection. we were told to line up outside the so called 'injection room' to get our injection before we can go back to our classes. i was one of the last few kids as my sur name start with a t. and so i just sit down and stare into space. my friends were discussing about how painful the injection was. and i notice tat all of my friends coming out from the 'injection room' were all crying and complaining about how painful it is. the more i look at them, the more i told myself not to cry. when it was finally my turn, i smile at the nurse and they were rather surprise as all my friends who came in were all on the verge of crying. anyway, the nurse apply alcohol on my shoulder and gave me an injection. i was surprise tat i didnt even feel anything at all. the nurse told me i was brave and it kinda make me feel happy. anyway, i cant really remember the other details of my primary 1 life. so let move on to primary 2.
the major thing tat happen in my primary 2 life was, i was punish with a group of guy friends(i am the only girl punish with them.) for trying to burn the field. when i was in primary 2, i have more guy friends than girl friends because i was very boyish at that time. it wasnt exactly my fault tat for the burning of the field but i was also punish. it was like this, my friends brought lighters and matchsticks to sch. they ask me to go to the field with them. not knowing what they are up to, i follow them. they took out their lighters and matchsticks and begin burning the leafs. i ask them to stop but they just continue and even scolded me for being a chicken. in the end, i jus stand there and watch. the prefect came and they all run. not knowing wad to do, i ran with them. one prefect caught me and i try to explain tat i was not involve and i was only watching them. but he just brought me along with all my friends caught by the other prefects to see the principal. i try to tell her tat i was not involve but one of my guy friend frame me and say he saw me burning the leafs with them too. i was shocked but i kept silence since i know it is useless to talk. during assemble, we were brought up to stage. i saw my eldest bro staring at me as if asking me why were u on stage. i jus stare into space and thinking of wad has happen just now and i vow never to be friend with jh again coz he frame me and oso never to stand and watch in a crime scene again. but the future is not decided by u and i was in the same class as jh in my pri 2, pri 3, pri 5 and pri 6 and so it was hard ignoring him as we were in the same class. anyway, when i got home tat day, my mum beat me and keep asking me y i am so stupid to burn the sch field. but i did no such thing and i dont understand y nobody believe me. i just cried until i fall asleep.
another incident tat happen in my primary 2 life was, i fell down and left a scar on my knee cap + most of my teeth broke and my mouth is full of blood. it was a rainy day and after alighting from the sch bus, my friends wanna see who is the fastest runner and so we started running. the floor was wet and tat was why i fall. from then on, i learn not to run on a wet day.
my primary 3 life. this is the first time i m introdue to the subject call science. i love this subject since then. in chongfu pri sch, there is this small pond in the eco garden which is filled with tapole and other forms of life which i dunno. i love watching them during my break time. when my friends were playing catching, eating, playing games, i will just stare at the tapole until the bell rang. the tapole never were able to become frog becoz, they were caught by a lot of students until not a single one was left in the pond. my only real friends tat i have were all caught and i dunno y they wanna catch them and bring them home. y cant they just leave them alone. anyway, my sch build a bigger pond and there was a brige linking the staffroom to the classrooom. but i dont like the new pond. the old one was better. but i cannot make choices for the sch. XD
i was in 3J the last class in chonfu primary sch and i met a really good teacher. although she always scold us, she is the best teacher (until now) i have met. nth much happen in my primary 3 life. XD
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Saturday 5 July 2008
oh man!!! i m going crazy!!! wad is wrong with me??? WTH is going on??? must learn to control myself. the more i think of it, the more awkward i felt. oh man...something seriously is wrong with me!!! pls let me just relax and think of mid course exam rather than focus all my energy on other thing.
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Friday 4 July 2008
today during math lecture, i was paying attention to my teacher lecturing in front. when i was about to take my pencil from my pencil case which is on my lap, i saw a 5cm long millipede on my uniform. i was shocked to c it and jump a little bit. it cause wanyi, simin ,pam and the teacher to look at my direction. i was so embarrass and keep laughing non stop while looking at tat worm. after dunno how long then i start to calm down. it so happen tat chong siang went to toilet and didn't know wad happen. the worm disappeared for 30 min b4 it resurfaces again 7 seats away from me. the girls there were screaming (but not really very loud until the whole lecture group could hear it.) after lecture, i took a piece of tissue paper from wanyi and catch the millipede to throw into the dustbin because i am scare the people in LT1 will step on it. and so i pick the worm and run to the nearest dustbin i can find to throw it. but i didn't kill it because i am such a nice gal. XP
another ting tat i wanna share with u is, i m the BLOOD DONATION OFFICER. i m quite happy to be the blood donation officer though it mean more responsibility for me. XP
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Thursday 3 July 2008
有人说爱是放手.
为了你,
我做了很多傻事,
你却无动于衷.
好想放手,
却舍不得让你离开.
只希望你能,
再爱我多一点.
I was in math EXTRA lecture when this so called poem came into my mind. Just suddenly thought of it and decided to share with all of you.
Today is a meaningful day for me. I managed to wake up at 5.50am and reach school at 7.05am. Such an achievement is rare for me ever since i step into Innova Junior College. I reach school just to find out that Cang Ning and Jie Mei were still not in school. LOLS!!!
After chemistry tutorial, we were late for assembly and so we have to sit on the floor again. It isn't fair! Our classroom is located at the 4th floor and lesson often end later by a few min and alas, we can only sit on the floor of the largest LT in Innova Junior College, the LT1.
After assembly, was my well deserve one hour break before my "A" level Chinese oral exam start. The passage was quite easy as there was only one word i don't know how to pronounce. But just now, dunno why, i suddenly got nervous at the end of the passage and kind of skip some of the words. Anyway, just one comment for today oral. COULD HAVE DONE BETTER!!!
I was quite worried for my chinese oral the night before and even ask my Ling Ling to lend me her higher chinese textbook (HCTB) for me to pratice before the oral exam. I found some useful notes from the book which might help in my paper 2 instead. XP
Found one poem from HCTB that is quite nice. Shall write it here for you to enjoy too. =)
前世我是一棵树
化成泥土
生长在热带的雨林
今生我分身为一页白纸
我诗的精灵
许身为句句诗的载体
穿过星辰
明天我将化成灰烬
在火焰的狂舞后
向每天晨读的你问好
<再生树> 潘正镭
Wanyi design a crossword puzzle logo for FRIENDS!!! but i dunno how to put it here and so sorry that you cannot view it. XD
shall blog again when I am free. XP
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Wednesday 2 July 2008
actually wanted to blog last sat but after returning home at 11pm, i 4got to. last sat, i went to national lib to look around with my mum. we were looking through the books there. the lib is super cool!!!! it is big plus the micro forms are dated back from 1983. My mum and i were having fun searching for my grandfather pic in the newspaper. i have never seen my paternal grandfather b4 becoz when i was born, he was long gone. when we found his pic, we print it out so tat we can keep it. it cost 60 cent for 1 piece of paper. LOLS!!!
then on Sunday, i went to my maternal grandparents house to eat dinner. in the afternoon, jie mei, cang ning and liang le came to my house to practice oral coz Monday is their Chinese A level oral exam. we were watching Jay MTV. liang le was commenting tat she dont like Jay. But she cant win the 3 of us la. all 3 of us like Jay's song especially jie mei. cang ning keep saying tat jie mei is Jay's future wife. and we eat bread for lunch. actually i was the one hungry coz i haven eaten my lunch but the 3 of them jus wanna come to my kitchen to pei me eat. in the end, all of us were eating bread except liang le (i tink)
Monday, wad did i did on Monday??? erm after sch, most of us have chem extra tutorial until 6pm. after tat, Friends without qian ning plus a special guest, Rachel, went to causeway point to eat our dinner. i was eating so sowly tat cs took out his lappy to play audition and Rachel was so bored with us. hmmm, seem tat rach cant click with friends. LOLS.
then after i finally finish eating my dinner, we went to take some funny photos using cs lappy. u can view them in Chong Siang's blog. went home jus nice to watch my 9pm show. XD
yesterday, i went to RP with friends. yuying was sick and so she didn't come with us and qian ning was not with us too. RP's lib is damn big la. we were saying tat if we were to meet up to study, we will go to RP's lib instead of Woodland lib coz there are more seats available. not like woodland lib. we have to go there damn early jus to book seats and sometimes, if we were jus 1 min late or later by a little bit more, we have to sit on the floor. after crashing RP, we went to pam house to play wii. i went off early becoz i told jie mei and cang ning tat i will be waiting for them. i thought i was late and they were gone long b4 i reach. but unknown to me coz my hp low batt and couldn't receive sms, they went to cwp. haha. i hope next time i will be more punctual.
oday!!! ntth fun happen. jus know tat i have to complete all my h/w by today plus practice my chinese oral tmr. jus saw one of my friend blog, it make me tink of wad i did in the past. i hope she can stop doing tis (though sth it is jus not possible becoz physical pain is the best cure for emotional pain.)come to tink of tat, i did tat becoz of the so called love. indeed, LOVE HURTS. But if it dont, it shows u did not really love b4 and so losing tis relationship is nth to u. but come to tink of tat, although love hurts, many ppl still wan it. isn't it an irony???
after viewing cang ning blog jus now, i also wanna tok abt my friend(tis time is not the friends i m refering to) hmmm. if i have the choice, i will choose to have one best friend and not many many many best friend. but then sometimes it is hard for u to decide and oso, most of the time, the friend u tink is ur best friend, dont tink the same way as u did. and ur friend who tink of u as their best friend, u dont tink tat way.
anyway, here are my list of really best friends.
- R*****
-E******
-A******
-M*****
-S******
-I******
-H*****
-S*****
-Y*****
-Y*****
-Y*****
i hope they never know tat they are listed as my A list friends. i will do anything for them to make them happy. if they are unhappy, i hope i will be there for them(tat is IF they really need me in the first place.)
these are my best friend
- Friends
-some 0823B classmates
-some 0812A classmates
-some WRSS friends
-some CFPS friends
-and all my religious friend
they make a difference in my life and really change me from wad i used to b until the me i m now. Thanks!!!
now i finally understand why pamela and pearlyn blog are so long. becoz when we seldom blog, suddeny got load of things to write abt. XD
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