Wednesday 28 October 2009
today play handball during PE. so fun sia, mayb coz the best player is in my team and she keep scoring and also we have great teamwork and so it was fun playing the game. the gp lesson today is damn sianz sia. dont even noe how to do a single qn. so lan lor. focus too much on family until cannot do any other qn...lols
been tinking too much these few days until i suddenly feel so lost... dunno wad i m tinking.
It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right. found tis quote and find it so true. yea nth is ever right. everything is in the grey area where there are no definite ans to the qn. when we were young, right and wrong seem to b very clear to us. the older we get, the more complicated things get. i dont even noe wad my brain is thinking. dont like tis type of uncertainty feeling. dunno wad brain is make of. is constantly full of crap and nonsense lor nth else inside sia. I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. i dunno when is it going to end lor. how i wish i can jus push all those ugly thoughts away. but it jus keep resurfacing every time i try to push it away. anyway i like tis quote tat i jus found. Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit.
but i dont wanna quit, neither do i wanna get fired. y are we continually making choice? wad if we made a wrong choice which causes regrets. every choice we make comes with a risk. but is too bad we can never predict our future. how i wish i could c my future but is it a gd choice at all? tats me. never know wad i rly wan in life. i dunno y i m in tis world anyway...
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Tuesday 20 October 2009
hmm jus gt back my chem results, gt tis mixed feeling inside me. is like i m happy with my grade yet a bit disappointed as i could have done better if nt for some little bit of careless mistakes here and there.
hehe rly wanna thank the ppl who had help me to reach for the sky. i dunno wad and how i should do to repay ur kindness and the help u have given me. well i did it and i will continue to put in more effort to do better and make u guys feel proud of it.
anyway is only chem la. i still have so many sub haven take back yet. today is like when mrs yap going to show the top few ppl. only 10! i was like will my name b up there? den was looking down the list and felt so disappointed. after tat i saw it. yes it was there! my name!!! omg is me i m at number 5!!! i stare at it so long to make sure i wasnt wrong. 0923C TYN
i guess i over reacted. but i jus cant stop feeling excited abt it.
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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Friday 16 October 2009
feeling so confused now. i dunno wad i m tinking.
<<断了的弦>>
我沉默 妳的話也不多
我們之間少了什麼 不說 哎呦
我沉默 你的消息比我更多
握著妳的手 問妳確定了再走
我突然釋懷的笑 笑聲盤旋半山腰
隨風在飄搖啊搖 來到妳的面前繞
妳淚水往下的掉 說會記住我的好
你的手也忘记了松
妳的美已經給了誰
我追了又追要不回
我了解離開樹的葉
屬于地上的世界凋謝
斷了的弦 再彈一遍
我的世界 妳不在裡面
我的指尖 已經彈出繭
還是無法留妳在我身邊
斷了的弦 再怎麼練
我的感覺 妳已看不見
妳的指间 像斷掉的弦
再怎麼接 音都不對
妳的转变 我能夠分辨
我沉默 妳的話也不多
我們之間少了什麼 不說 哎呦
我笑后 表情终于有点难过
握著妳的手 問妳確定了再走
我突然釋懷的笑 笑聲盤旋半山腰
隨着隨風飄啊飄 來到妳的面前繞
妳淚水往下的掉 說會記住我的好
我也弯起了嘴角笑
妳的美已經給了誰
我追了又追 要不回
我了解離開樹的葉
屬於地上的世界凋謝
斷了的弦 再怎么练
我的世界 妳不在裡面
我的指尖 像断掉的旋
就是無法留妳在我身邊
斷了的弦 再怎麼練
我的世界 妳已看不見
妳的指间 像斷掉的弦
再怎麼接 音都不對
妳的世界 我怎么分辨
anyway, mid course is over now. have been rotting ever since tuesday. haiz dunno when i will start studying. hmm for tis mid course, feel so much different as compared to last year. haha last year mid course is like a waste of time as i already noe tat i m going in to fail. of course rite since i never even touch my notes last year. last year i have no aim. i dun even noe y i m going to sch everyday. i learn nth and jus slp my way through the whole of last year. tis year is so different. i found my goal in life and i finally woke up. although it wasnt easy as i have to start all over again but the fruit is sweet and it is worth the effort tat i have put in. but in life, when u gain something. u will lose something too. is a choice i had to make yet it is so hard to choose.
getting back my results next week le. feeling quite nervous abt it. i hope i do well in it. hehe jia you everyone. we can make it de^^
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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