finally I have decided not to hide anymore:) shall blog more frequently since school haven't start yet. hmm this year has pass so quickly without me actually really noticing it. Now is going to be May soon. Around half a year has almost pass now and what have I done that truly make me feel that I have led a meaningful life? Answer is none!! Been wasting time doing nothing and working. ok maybe working is not a waste of time since I get my input from there. Perhaps the most meaningful thing that I have done is getting up early in the morning to do exercises. So pleased with myself for that even though I slacked a lot while exercising>.< haha so ever since I got back my result in March, many people have asked about what I want to do and where I want to go next. Well honestly, I am quite disappointed with my results especially my Chemistry. Although my Economics did surprisingly well, I was still hoping it will be Chemistry that I will do really well in since it was the one subject that I really spend a lot of time in and really put in a lot of effort for it. So failing my expectation was something I couldn't accept at that point of time. It got worse when others don't understand me and even misunderstood me. I could understand why but is just at that point of time, I wasn't really in the mood for it. I don't know why but I felt quite hurt when people congrats me for my grades. Haiz is just complicated. So now in April, everyone started to ask me if I got accepted into any university or got any letters for them. I appreciated your concern but I don't wish to talk about it because I find this issue very sensitive. Maybe you don't feel this way but I do. Haha so just move on and not talk about school and grades. For me, I love to dream about my past and how I could change my future if I have done this and this in my past. Although I understand perfectly well that it is impossible to go back to my past to change anything, I still love to dream about it. But maybe for a change I should start thinking about my future. I am a soon to be 20 years old human being. Yet, I haven't plan my future!! This is bad. For all my life, I always dream to be someone famous. Is perfectly fine to dream about that but is just that I am not doing anything to move towards it. Only words without actions is getting me nowhere near. Ooh and I just realize how powerful anime is. Simply love them^^ Being introduced into the world of animation and love the job of a seiyuu (voice actor). It seem like fun. I got two new idols, Kobayashi Yuu (Yuu Chan) and Nonaka Ai (Ai Chan). Hmm what do I like about them? Yuu Chan is just too awesome. Someone who has such a beautiful voice is willing to try out all sort of weird voices just to suit the anime and got so into the character. Haha I must say she really is very devoted to her work. Know her through the anime Negima. Her character in the anime is Setsuna Sakurazaki a samurai who is very protective of her childhood friend who is her ojousama. Make a quick guess who is her childhood friend?:) Hmm maybe this is too easy for you if you have read the manga or watch the anime. yup is our dear Konoe Konoka and the seiyuu for this character happened to be Ai Chan. Well I have to admit that I never pay much attention to Konoka in the manga but I was drawn to Ai Chan more then to Yuu Chan. Haha might be because I went to wiki them and found out some common factor that I have with her. Like Rainie Yang, Ai Chan managed to motivate me. Somehow I am motivated to try even though I know I might not succeed. Oh and her songs are nice too. I like her style:) But I find that Yuu Chan has strong vocal and is very daring to try out new things. For this, I envy her!! Seriously if I could be as bold as her, maybe I will enjoy life more. Well I hope I could be as daring as Yuu Chan, as sweet as Ai Chan, as cute as Rainie Yang, as cool as Rui En, as talented as Jay Chou and as determined as Jeanette Aw. Wow didn't realize I just list down my idol. Have a lot to learn from them:) Haha my one wish is to be able to meet them in person or maybe just have a glance at them from afar. Well well managed to get a glance at Rainie for a few hours at her concert though it was rather funny to hold my hands up straight for that few hours because I was sitting so far behind that I have to hold a binocular to see her clearly:) Ok it was quite stupid since there is a screen that I could actually look at but for me I want to see her! If I look at the screen I feel like I am just watching TV and it doesn't seem right for me. Hmm Yuu Chan and Ai Chan don't come to Singapore:( so if I want to see them, perhaps I might consider getting a job as a seiyuu. haha!!! I wonder if anyone might consider me. lols