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Saturday, 31 July 2010
so many things pile tgt tat it render me to nothingness. first was the chem lecture tat i found it hard to understand(which i now realise was actually a better thing rather than always knowing something and waiting for others to understand too), econ reap again i m in koh class. dunno whether i should feel happy or sad. math nt much feeling coz haven try the banding yet. only noe tat my complex and corelation is nt strong and should improve on it. quote from miss lim 'if u stay in ur comfort zone now, u are only solidifying ur grades not having improvement. do u rather wan a C than an A. of coz i wan my A. i nt only wan 1 A. i wan 5 A. ok although it seem a bit greedy, but i wan it!
i shall now list my expectation for my prelim 2
GP:C
Hist:B
Chem:top the whole corhot
Math:A
Econ:B
whether tis dream can occur depend on my ability to control my time well instead of being on the com almost every wkends.
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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Wednesday, 28 July 2010
somethings wrong with me today after chem lect i jus simply couldnt control it anymore and i storm out of lt4. after break, when i went to the classroom i couldnt control it and i jus cried. how sickening it is to appear weak in front of everyone. i felt disgusted by myself. as usual nobody understand me. i dunno y but is nt becoz of stress tat gt into me. is the feeling of nt feeling any stress tat gt into me. is the feeling of everyone running and i m walking tat gt into me. i hate tis feeling and was hoping tat i could tok to my perfect counselor. but sadly she was busy and i could only do my hw. did nth much as i was stoning most of the time. left sch at abt 8.40pm and felt so lonely. as usual wad to expect. lols
went home and watch tis documentary show called Life in ockto at 10pm. a fish caught my attention. Eucyologobius newberryi is a small fish tat is nt longer than 5cm. however their determination is so strong tat i felt inferior as compared to them. they are willing to climb up the waterfall by using their mouth to suck onto the rock and advance upward!!! although many of them died while attempting to do tis impossible task some success and they lay their eggs and enjoy their life at the top of the waterfall. now the question comes. do i wanna b those who give up halfway through tis tough journey or do i wanna b like those successful Eucyologobius newberryi tat made it to the top even though the journey wasnt easy? i bet everyone noes the ans. we all wanna b successful but when faced with challenges, are we up to it?
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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somehow i dunno wad i m tinking. i dislike tis feeling of emptyness. somehow it is different from them. my feeling is weird. i dont like tis. i wasnt comparing with anyone. neither am i angry with myself for dont understanding wad is going on. is jus weird tat i feel so empty. i was so tired ytd tat i fell aslp and even forgot where i left my spect. i forgo my computer until fri and i never watch my mobtv. i jus keep doing and doing and dunno where i m heading to. wads wrong with me. i dont like appearing weak in front of everybody. crying makes no diff for me as nobody cares. they dont understand and they never will!!!
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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Thursday, 22 July 2010
did very badly for my prelim 1. here my grades for Chem i gt B, followed by Econ i gt D(i still haven c my moderated marks), E for Math, E for GP and finally U for Hist. and i did something sinful ytd which i dunno whether i should feel guilty. i noe i m at fault but den i seriously needed tat time slot. now a bit regret coz wasted some time tat could have been put to better use. but the time is being fully utilized in another way. haha okok i noe i sound contradicting but seriously tis kind of feeling u will understand it when u face it urself. haha i tink i am getting crazy judging by the time A level is approaching. is so fast tat i jus couldnt understand how i spent my last 7 mths. ok final lap and i wont give up even though i gt U for u. i will make it into an A and get my good progress award and i wanna get top for chem in the whole corhot and final thing i wanna b one of the top scholar!!! shall blog abt my good news soon(i hope><)
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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Friday, 2 July 2010
a way to stardom or only a dash of hope? well i always dream of being an actress. and there is currently tis star search audition on 24 july. well i feel like joining but mayb as wad others will say, is jus a waste of time. A level is more impt. it determined ur future and if u dont do well in it, u are as well as dead. studies are of course important to ppl like me who doesnt rly have an aim in life. oh well as mention by Robert Kiyosaki (author of rice dad poor dad) in life we pay a price in everything that we do. the price for the so called security and the price of fulfilling ur lifelong dream. i dont tink i m willing to give up my studies for my dream. hmm i was wondering will i listen to everyone and do as i m told or should i have a mind of my own to do sth tat i noe i will regret if i never try? tis is so hard to decide. lols rite now my goal should b to focus on my studies yet my mind is somewhere else
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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