Wednesday, 28 October 2009
today play handball during PE. so fun sia, mayb coz the best player is in my team and she keep scoring and also we have great teamwork and so it was fun playing the game. the gp lesson today is damn sianz sia. dont even noe how to do a single qn. so lan lor. focus too much on family until cannot do any other qn...lols
been tinking too much these few days until i suddenly feel so lost... dunno wad i m tinking.
It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right. found tis quote and find it so true. yea nth is ever right. everything is in the grey area where there are no definite ans to the qn. when we were young, right and wrong seem to b very clear to us. the older we get, the more complicated things get. i dont even noe wad my brain is thinking. dont like tis type of uncertainty feeling. dunno wad brain is make of. is constantly full of crap and nonsense lor nth else inside sia. I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying. i dunno when is it going to end lor. how i wish i can jus push all those ugly thoughts away. but it jus keep resurfacing every time i try to push it away. anyway i like tis quote tat i jus found. Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit.
but i dont wanna quit, neither do i wanna get fired. y are we continually making choice? wad if we made a wrong choice which causes regrets. every choice we make comes with a risk. but is too bad we can never predict our future. how i wish i could c my future but is it a gd choice at all? tats me. never know wad i rly wan in life. i dunno y i m in tis world anyway...
只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。
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