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Tuesday, 15 July 2008

Today i felt so emo and i slash myself again. haiz...then after sch dont feel like going home. coz when i get home, cant study plus my mum always nag at me for not working hard enough. so i keep bugging my friends if i can go to their house to slack or wadever. jus dont wanna study nor go home. unfortunately, the 3 of them seem busy today. haiz...and so i dunno wad got into me tat i decide to follow yy and shir into bus 161 to sk. as wad yy say, i m jus wasting my time. but going to sch is already a waste of my time le so waste another hour or so seem nth to me. LoLs...anyway, sry yy, shir and rach for asking u guys so many time if i can go ur house. hope u dont mind as i m feeling a bit down.
today reasons for feeling sad and emo.
-thinking of you
-Wad ms ang say ytd(i tink she oso lose hope in me le. i keep asking yy not to giv up but now i myself is beginning to lose hope la)
-ms yeo wanna speak to my mum(my mum is already nagging at me everyday abt my studies and after toking with ms yeo next wed or fri, i m dead sure i even more dont wanna go home.)
-a talk with my bro ytd(he keep saying i have made the wrong choice in going to jc. tat time choose sch i insist on choosing jc and now cannot cope.)
All these make me feel very sad because i tink i am super suxy. Everything oso dunno and today at yy blk void deck(coz i dunno where i wanna to go after reaching sk and god help me decide by raining very heavily and so i have to stay there) I was thinking of everything when an uncle talk to me about my studies. Make me damn sad tat i cried out. WTF!!!! when did i become so weak!!! Cried in front of a stranger. shouldnt have done tat. I dont like to appear weak in front of others.
but somehow crying in front of stranger is better than crying in front of my friends. at least tat uncle dunno who i m. should i have cried in front of yy and shir, i will feel damn pai seh!!!!! anyway, tat uncle's words seem to help me a bit. after crying, i actually got the mood to study and started to study. Muz complete a lot of things b4 tmr. i tink i tonitez dont wanna slp le. anyway i met a SRJC guy under yy blk today. i was studying and he came and sit beside me and we started chatting plus doing work. he offer to teach me chem and math every tues from 6 to 9pm. and of course i agree since i tink i got no hope in studying it by myself.
I WANNA PUT MY HEART AND SOUL IN MY STUDIES (AT LEAST FOR THESE 3 MONTHS)!!! DONT WANNA RETAIN. I WANNA BE IN 0823B AND I WANT ALL MY CLASSMATES TO BE THERE WITH ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。 ;