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Thursday, 17 July 2008

sianz...jus now in math lecture listening to crap tat i dont understand. haiz...they say math is impt and i cannot giv up on it.
today listening compre still ok. not very difficult but quite tricky for some of the questions. jus now during econ and chem lecture, i realise tat wy and yy were paying attention in the lecture when i m still dreaming abt you. really should start learning from them and STOP thinking of you. anyway, i am getting used to treating you as a friend. tat is a good sign since you will never like me. anyway, as wad my friend told me, this feeling is crush and not love. i finally understand it.
i tink i ps my friends long enough le except for wy, pam, yy and cs. i hardly talk to jm, cn, ll plus my other friends. oh ya. thanks rong for ur encouragement.
anyway, wy is right in saying tat it is difficult to maintain my friendship with so many ppl. i tend to treat some of my friends better than the other sometime. like when i am with friends, i have to forgo my time i spend with cang ning group, my wrss friends, my MI friends and so on.
she is right in saying tat i have more hi-bye friends then real true friends. but it is hard to really find friends that really understand urself. i cant really blame anyone becoz i tried very hard for years to be the kind of friend tat can understand my friend's prob and needs. there was once i tried to be one of my friend, best friend. i keep tagging along with her group and hope tat i can be a part of the group. i offer to keep the plates for them when they finish eating and oso helping them to buy drinks. for i tink abt a year b4 i finally stop lying to myself tat i m a part of their grp. i m only welcome becoz i provide my service for them. when i m with them, they jus chat among themselves and i m jus invisible.
although i have failed friendship with some of them, i do have close friends but then not very close until they are willing to do anything for me. well...mayb i ask a lot out of my friends. well haha...mayb i m jus thinking too much. anyway, man come with nth and leave with nth. i jus hope tat if i really go, at least my friends can rmb tat there is such a girl call yanning who once came into their life b4.

只、君の笑顔が欲しくて、僕はここにいるんだ。 ;